What I Do On My Day Off

I'm finally using my PTO. It's been a while since I have a day to myself in the middle of week. The question I repeatedly asked myself is what do I want to do today? 

Not something I have to. Not something I should be doing. But something I want to do. 

I do all the things I want to do. Somewhat useless and somewhat useful. 

I sleep in and wake up without an alarm. 
I then have my coffee and bangle while listening to The Futur podcast. 
I journal for like 15 minutes.
I write a poem that I'm kind of happy with it, and I publish it online. (Shipping the work like Seth Godin told me to)

I then question to why I keep making contents on YouTube even though the ROI is so low and nobody is watching it. I am  basically in a doubting thought tunnel. I want to give up and refuse to give up at the same time. I see value in it and I wish some created that kind of contents when I was little. So instead of thinking, I start doing my side project tasks to prevent me from being in this doubtful state of mind. 
I think action gets rid of the doubt. I complete 4 tasks. 

I countiue reading The Practice by Seth Godin and thinking what I want to do and jot down my feeling in my notebook.

That's how the day goes. Lots of thinking.